When we first met you were kind of unexplainable. I thought hey she could
be the one for me. Love is blind, love is never a word unless
used by
God. True love is hard to find? No it's in the eyes of God. He
loved
us so much. Dear as you read this I'm telling you we could never
work
I mean it has to be 50-50 (or in most cases 60-40) but either way
I'm
putting in 100 you 0 I feel jipped. But dear I promise to always
be
there for you I'm not like that. Hey who knows we may meet
again...
hopefully in good terms.
The weight I carry around tonight...is more then I can bear...I
pray
to God to take all my sin and shame and call me clean. Hon you
did this
to me but you aren't totally at fault. I've learned not to listen
to
friends and go with what you think. Be yourself, be kind, true
happiness will be the hardest to find....but you will find it. I
pray
someday my ANGEL WITHOUT WINGS will be here to take me to
"paradise!"
but for now I shall live as a single guy. I have goals set, get
married
defiantly have a decent job that pays decent enough to support me
and
one other person, find a place to get on my own, HAVE FUN!!!,
become
something my parents would love to brag about.
There are days I wish I could crawl away to forget about
you...but
frankly babe it's the hardest thing to do...because my feet and
arms
are broken just like my heart. Just like a fool I thought you
were
then one. Like an angel of God you shone bright in my darkened
heart.
But the light is gone and all that's left is darkness and
emptiness.
I wish you well my dear in what you find near, but you will
always
have a place in my heart for you. Cuz you will be the one I dream
of
at night...hoping you will do the same. Even when I move on the
heartache still remains. I love you my dear and I pray each day
that
you will meet someone better then me. For I only want the best
for you.
From this day and until I die ------- I will love you die. Till
God
comes and takes me to my eternal resting place I shall only speak
good
of the times I had with you. Luv always...........(11/1/01)MRW
When I first saw your face. It lit up the darkened void of
loneliness
I had inside that part of my heart. Though I tried to hid it from
turned into a summer sky. You made the winter air seem to
disappear and
I felt the warmness of a love of oh so true. I love never felt to
me
before you showed me what it feels to have been loved. The night
we
spent together felt like daytime. Everything was brighter even my
smile
that had before showed bitter like the winters air. It was all
you.....
and yes this is still all a dream too real for me. But hopefully
one
day the light will light up the part of my heart that still sees
no
light. Wherever she may be. I hope I find my angel without wings!
I wonder if I'll ever see you again. I wonder if you feel the
same as
I do tonight. I wonder what you think about me. I wonder what
secrets
you are keeping from me. I wonder how this will last. Is it just
tonight or forever? I dream of the beach and my mind goes free. I
think about you and me. And I feel happy, I think how you changed
this harden heart to clay. It was you no one else. Yes I've been
hurt
before. Yes there times where I don't know what I am doing. There
are times I wonder why I fall so easy. I wonder what will happen
tomorrow. I'm sorry I wonder a lot but I want to know the answers!
-MRW 11/11/01
When I first met you. I wanted to know you. So did you but then
after
we meet again you changed your mind. Babe I know I fell too quick
but
being lonely so long makes you go crazy. But I know I shouldn't
have but
I did. I thought I was over. But tonight I saw you again. And it
felt like
a knife was thrown into my heart and it hurt. It hurt every time I
saw
the memory of you. It hurt some much I had to run away and cry. I
had
to get the dagger lodged deep in my heart. But I know I won, I'm
still
alive you can kick me around. But I'll press through like a
Marine
with a desire to make it home. I will press through and make it.
Like
the Bee Gee's I'm staying alive. Going with the flow. Someday I'll
find
my angel with out wings! MRW 11/11/01
Take this from me all the pain and suffering it's more then I can
stand.
The memories of our past keep me awake. Dreaming of a better
place. It's
hard to come up top when you are on the bottom of the food chain
of life.
I've tried this I've tried that. But I don't know anymore, I wish
there was
no pain no suffering. But every time I don't expect it, it nails
me in
the head like a freight train hitting a stalled SUV. So fast I
don't
have time to get it started and burn outta the way. My heart
always skips
a beat when you enter the room. Even though I can't be with you I
feel
a part of me is stuck. It's like I'm stuck in first gear going 30
I'm
near the red line and can't slow down cuz the accelerator is
stuck wide
open. But then I hit the brick wall of rejection and crash and
burn.
Help me I'm hopeless, Help me I'm falling in love, Help me I'm in
love
with you still! Like Limp Bizkit says "It's just one of
those days you
don't want to wake up." I don't want to wake up and remember
you. I feel
like the world is on my shoulder and then when I see you a dagger
breaks
the camels back and I come crashing to a fiery end. I hope you
are happy,
I hope you think you are better then me. Because in the end I
will be the
winner and I will win this game of life! MRW 11/11/01
Forever is a long time. Especially after dealing with the
heartache tonight.
I wish I could've made everything alright. But obviously I wasn't.
But
there's no one I can hold tonight or even kiss goodnight. No one to
call
me when I'm down. No one to make me feel happy. All I'm left is
heart
worth breaking. God Bless my friends. Keep them safe forever. My
friends
wherever they are mean the world to me. They are the ones who
help. No one
can make me feel when I'm down. Bless my Boys! Bless my Girls!
You know
who you all are. Because they are the ones there for me when I
have
girl problems. They can turn the sky from gray to blue. They made
the
sky much better to look at. Thank you all. ***Dedicated to the
BOYS
and my Crew*** LUV YA ALL MRW 11/11/01
I hear bells ringing it sounds so eerie. The slowly dying of the
sound
is like the name of you going through my head. Just when I think
the
sounds is gone the next strike brings it back. It's something I
can't
escape. The sounds keeps me awake and in a cold sweat knowing the
end
is near. The last chime could be the last one I hear. As the
clock
strikes twelve the sound slowly dies. Breathing a sigh of relief
another day has finally come to an end and tomorrow is a new day.
As I look down the hall I feel I can see forever. But then the
light
goes out and the world becomes dark. I can't see my hand, I can
only
hear the screams of pain as I have arrived in a place called
hell.
So much suffering, I see no one else. Even though I hear their
cries
for help. And all of the sudden I feel I am burning up as I join
the
cries it becomes a horrible choir with devil himself leading it.
I
realized I just experience hell. I pray to God I never get there.
Then I heard a wonderful sound........"Welcome home my
son."
A battle field is all around. You may not see tanks, planes, guns
or
wartime stuff. But there has been a battle since snakes had legs.
It's called the battle of Good and Evil. But in the end Good will
prevail with GOD on top! For he is the heavy weigh champion of
the
universe.